‘Just the way I am’ by Guest Contributor Wolverine

We have only just started summer, but already its so hot and with my exam and portfolio  deadlines only about 48 hours away, i think that certainly turns the heat up.

I couldn’t concentrate,  I took my clothes off and then I snapped a few pics. Not for anyone in particular,  I just wanted to see what i look like.
I used to be tiny, size 28 and now I fluctuate between 34 and 36 . I used to be confident  of my looks and then somehow, the older I got, the more weight I gained, the less confident I became.

At times, I think being a stay at home student who could get a PhD in household chores,  is what I’m good at. I love social sciences,  but i find that of late I’m not so eloquent in speech like back then…neither am I tech savvy. I wonder if I was to get a proper job in my field would I be comfortable or good at it? Its funny how, my prison has become my sanctuary, I used to hate it. ( it can be overwhelming!) I never get lost where it comes to house chores, cooking, knowing whom to serve first etc…

Yet once I just wanted to be this incredible woman,  meeting donors, making humanitarian headlines and earning serious dollars. I still want that, I still hope for that.

I spent time looking down on myself,  I wanted to be thinner, I wanted to be sexier.Went on a diet, did the gym, starved , but for whom and for what?
So as I took pics today, I realised I’m not the size 28/30 that HE  wants, but i think I’m sexy, I love my curves , I know where I’m going and success will be mine all in good time.
If I wasn’t so shy, I’d probably have made this my profile pic for the day or the month.

Lesson learnt:

Never apologise for being who you are, there’s someone out there who thinks you are super hot the way you are and who can’t get enough you.