Many times
I’m the one at the center of love..
Triangles, rectangles, hexagons…
all the shapes
i.e. i like someone in the room
And someone else in the room likes me
And oh! Who’s that newbie?
You get the flow?
So this time
In this particular geometrical arrangement
I like them and they like me
But they like each other more
Or are at the excited about each other phase
And i kinda fade into the background from time to time
Cue Erykah Badu – Green Eyes
“My eyes are green… nothing to do with your new friend”
How does this make me feel?
Plenty
At my core, I’m ok with it
Lovers who can be friends
-with me and with each other
The plenty is…
An adjustment
To not being the center of attention
The plenty is…
A humbling
Tales of lovers and friends
Friends who are lovers
And me
Self-partnered human
“My eyes are green…”
Non-attachment needs
Presence
Giving self space to feel and process
All the feelings
The cute ones like,
Heart fluttering when holding hands
First kiss that wipes your mind blank
And the confusing ones
Like jealousy
Competitiveness
Possessiveness
I’d say the cure for these confusing parts
Is giving yourself space to process
Get some sleep
Text your bestie!!
Wake up with perspective
Review L’s
Lick wounds
Swallow that kiwaru
And then-
Figure out what you want
(What are you jealous of exactly?)
Do you want sex?
Do you want more time?
More distance?
Figure out what you want
Write it down if you must
And then move accordingly
“My eyes are green…”
On the other side lies-
Attention
Affection
Care
Thoughtfulness
Synchronicity
Deep connection
Love for music
Many, many music moments
Perfect music moments
Shared silences
Shared wins
Shared interests
Time together
Fun times
Lots and lots of time together
On the other side I found my
Forever Bae <3
Bestie comes to mind
Easy, effortless companionship
Tripping
Road tripping
Shrooms tripping
Acid, molly
Pink pills, yellow pills
(never tell)
Staying lifted
Brave
Unafraid
Unashamed
Exciting levels of insanity
(sweet, sweet lips)
Ready for Go Time at the flick of a switch
Love personified
So much love
You know who’s looking out for humanity?
Us
As in me,
Forever bae <3
Alicia Keys
And everyone else who leads with love
(love is how we win)
(meanwhile we fight)
(kill all rapists)
Erykah Badu bows down to Forever Bae <3
Rihanna & alladem can happily mind their other businesses
Because-
Forever Bae <3
Forever, huh?
Forever, as in-
She feels like home
Like a reunion with a past self
Forever as in-
She’s my favorite person to see everyday
My whole being lights up with delight when i open my door and it’s her
And when she’s not there,
I notice
Forever as in-
I can say everything
And i can say nothing
We’re always laughing
I love that
Laughter is good
Especially that night with the acid & molly & pink pills & yellow pills
(we will never tell)
Forever as in-
Soak up the breeze
Smoke up some trees
Un-holy crabs
“I bet you these niggas can’t swim”
And other stories
Anarchy, also
Five minutes
Go time!
Forever Bae <3
Everything is everything
Love like this has no ending